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Happy Holidays (Merry Christmas)!

I'm not really sure what I am going to get into tonight. That means in general about what I am going to do tonight before I go to sleep and in the more specific as in what this blog is going to be about.

I went to a Christmas concert tonight that was pretty good. It was a string quintet playing all sorts of songs like Vivaldi - Winter and Bach to old school Christmas songs and even some Mariah Carey. It was something to do on a Saturday night.

I have to get my tits going good so I can wear ridiculous deep v t-shirts showing them off. Such ridiculous v-neck t-shirts that you show the upper abs off too. Women should let their tits out. Men should let their tits out too. Tomorrow is Chest/Triceps day is why I bring it up. I don't think I'm quite at the right volume or frequency yet optimization wise but I did do a side chest pose and most muscular pose when I was pumped up and it looked pretty good. So good I was turned on and masturbated to myself flexing in the mirror right then and there.

After that I was exhausted so I played some World of Warcraft Classic (WoW C). I feel like I am really coming a long way with my life as I level this character up. I am seeing personal growth in new depths and dimensions than I could have ever imagined. Running around smacking stuff over and over and over again.

I need some new reading too. I'm not sure what I'll go with but I am sure I'll find something. I feel like I need to read some Jane Austen or something like that. I have been reading these Huysmans and Bret Easton Ellis it's all about torture and murder. While brilliant and I am happy I read them I'd like to read something that doesn't have torture and murder. I've had enough of it and quite frankly I don't think anyone could do it better than Huysmans and Bret Easton Ellis. I was reading these short stories by David Foster Wallace (DFW) and he had one just today about torture, rape, and murder. It was actually pretty good but not as good as Huysmans or Brett Easton Ellis. So, I am all out of books and I am not quite sure where to go from here.

Oh well, I guess I can start looking for a new book. Any suggestions always welcome.

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I had the thought my blog always ends up being about me. Not always. Those are probably my best blog posts. The biggest reason it always ends up being about me is I don't think I'm skilled enough to put out serious essays especially with sources and notes and such. I used to do this in academia but I got a degree and never went back. I'm more of a consumer (reading) than a producer (meaningful writing).

I just finished The Brothers' Karamazov by Dostoevsky (good read) and started Who Fears Death by Okorafur (jury's out but I like it so far). That's on top of reading some non-fiction. God knows I have the time.

My mom also got me a subscription to The New York Times. It lets me know what The Regime is up to more or less. It lets me know what the propaghanda arm of Blackrock Inc. and Harvard University and the CIA is saying. NYT is probably slightly better than Elon Musk propaghanda (X). The X algorithm got really fucked some times too. Good fucking riddance.

Being away from LP for a while forced me to find all new stuff and gravitated towards reading versus video games which is a very good thing. I still missed some writing outlet even if it's not meaningful. I even considered writing a blog and sending it to lostaccount to post lol. So, it's a problem. I recognize this.

I am also attempting to purge sports from my brain as well as red v blue political bull shit. See what my brain can come up with with more room in there.

I've been having dreams about painting but sadly I am too broke to paint currently. That is ok though. This vacation from work has mostly been about reading and walking at the core. I continue to read and walk and I'll be ok. Perhaps up my getting a job game. I am waking up between 6am - 8am. I got a haircut today. It looks pretty good. It's funny how a good haircut can be an instant confidence booster. I also need to get better with my exposure therapy irt driving a car. It is a lot easier to get a job within a 30 min. radius in a car than trying to find something remote.

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Well, lostaccount wanted an update and I can't sleep at the moment so here WE GOOOOOO!:

My bank account is dwindling and dwindling. I'm starting to drive further and further. My haircut looks like I have been out of work for 9 months (I have). I want to get a haircut that looks like I am running for office. I am thinking short on the sides and back and then going with a sidepart or a slickback. Suggestions welcome!

It's been interesting how I've been keeping myself busy. I started watching Avatar: The Last Airbender and Succession. I'm finally reading a book Stroggoz suggested to me probably almost 10 years ago. I don't remember the title. Something about Corporate Propaghanda vs Freedom and Liberty. Sometimes it takes me a while to get to a book but I typically will get to it at some point. I've just been really into politics lately. I read Hillbilly Elegy by JD Vance. I think Trump / Vance have about 66.6667% chance to win to keep the numbers simple. I'm not a big fan of Kamala Harris but is she better than Project 2025? Why do our choices have to be between insane situations?

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